Girl, I’ll be thinking about you worldwide. Yes, I may meet a million pretty girls that know my name. but don’t you worry, ‘cause you have my heart.
You sat by your desk, waiting. Waiting. You had been waiting for at least an hour now. However, that was partially your fault. You had gotten ready a bit too early than you should have, but you couldn’t help it. You were just too excited. You hadn’t seen Logan in such a long time and you missed him. Who wouldn’t miss one of their best friends if they hadn’t seen them in six whole months?
You sighed as you picked up up your phone and checked the time again. ‘7:30 PM’ it read. Only a half hour left until Logan, James, Kendall and Carlos came to pick you up.
You dropped your phone back into your bag and looked out the window. Nervously, you drummed your fingers onto the tabletop. What was he like now? Had he changed during that long of a time period? Would your friendship with him be the same as it was before he left? A cyclone of thoughts and those well known ‘What if’s’ circled through your head.Your heart anxiously began to thump against your skin. You took a deep breath trying to calm down your frazzled nerves. It’s alright, Kelsey, you’ve talked mostly every day on the phone with him for the past six months. What could have changed? What’s the big deal in seeing him in flesh and blood for the first time in months, anyway?
However, your own consolations just made you feel even more high-strung. Even though you wouldn’t admit it aloud, it was a big deal. A very big deal. You had realized a few months earlier that you had feelings for Logan and had had them for a longer time period. You kept debating with yourself if you should tell him or not, but the latter always kept winning. He only thinks of you as a friend. That was the obstacle you couldn’t pass. That annoying grinding-noise of a stupid thought. But you couldn’t get over it. Whenever you gained the courage to tell him something seemed to get in the way moments before you could confront him.
The ringing of a doorbell shook you awake from your reveries and over-thinking. You jumped, the doorbell startling you. You quickly took out your phone and checked the time. 8:00 PM. Yep, that was about right.
You took a deep breath quickly straightening out your Venetian blue sequined dress and passing a satisfied glance over your equally dark blue plain ballet flats. You grabbed your purse off the work desk and rushed down the stairs over to the door.
Pausing, you took another deep breath as you stood at the door and finally reached for the handle. Slowly, you opened the door. A smiling equally giddy and excited face was what was awaiting you at the other side.
"Logan!" you exclaimed, not being able to stop the overwhelming urge that had just come over you.
"Kelsey!" he replied in an equally excited tone of voice. He wrapped his arms around you pulling you into a tight hug and you felt your heart racing inside of your chest. You cringed, hoping he couldn’t sense it.
Slowly, he let you go and moved a slow step a little backwards.
"Don’t you look nice." he commented, eyeing you from top to bottom.
"You don’t look so bad yourself." you smiled, giving him a playful punch in the shoulder.
"Ready to go?" he asked, extending his hand in a courteous fashion waiting for you take it. You liked this extreme 20th century gentleman manner of his.
"Yep, let’s go." you said as you took his hand.
He led you to the car without saying another word. As you were getting ready to open the car door he did it for you.
"M’lady," he smiled at you.
You held back a laugh. Logan had never acted this way. Of course, he’d always been a gentleman, but not in this way. And truthfully, it was amusing you and at the same time you found it very attractive and captivating.
As you got into the passenger seat you realized no one except you and Logan were there.
"Uh," you reverted your eyes from the back of the car where you’d turned around to say hello to the other boys back to Logan. "Where are the boys?"
"They went with Carlos’s car." he said simply.
You waited a few seconds, but he didn’t give you any further explanation. Seeing that he wasn’t going to you decided not to push it and to stop asking. Instead, you reverted the subject to the tour and how it had gone.
"Oh, it was great. Seeing all those new faces. All those new countries. Everything was great." he paused. "But you know this is my home. My heart is here. And it always will be." he said the last sentence with an air of unmistakable mystique whose source you couldn’t pin-point.
In about twenty minutes you arrived at the arena. The next forty minutes you spent alone while the boys got ready for the upcoming concert. You hoped to see them bit more before the concert, but you didn’t get to. They were too busy getting ready, so you got showed to your seat. This was one thing about their fame that you didn’t like too much. Of course, you were extremely proud of them for getting so far and making it into that glamorous world of fame and living their dreams, but on another note you missed them. A lot.
You shook these thoughts out of your head. You were here to enjoy yourself and see your friends perform in front of a huge crowd of screaming girls. You were here to have fun. You had been to many of their concerts, but tonight was special. You didn’t know why, but you just had the feeling that it was. Maybe it was the way Logan had acted in the car, maybe it was that you hadn’t seen the boys in such a long time… You didn’t know. But there was something. You could feel it.
Suddenly the music started. The whole concert went by as if it were only a minute long. You jumped, you danced, you sang. The boys kept looking over in your direction and passing you amused smiles. You didn’t care, though. You were having fun.
The end of the concert was nearing. The music came to a stop and the arena was filled with long echoing cheers from the crowd.
"Thank you!" the boys yelled out. "You have been incredible tonight!"
They waited a while for the noise to die down. You expected that they would announce that the concert was over, thank the fans again and leave, but you were surprised at what followed.
"However, tonight is not over." Logan said. "We want to sing a song which I’m dedicating to my special someone."
You suddenly felt a pang of sadness and slight jealousy in you chest. You should have known. He had met someone on tour. Of course he wouldn’t stay around waiting for you. Maybe if you had made your move sooner… No. You shook your head. You two probably were just never meant to be.
You slumped down in your seat as everyone shouted at the well-known opening chords of one of your favorite Big Time Rush songs ‘Worldwide Girl’. However, you didn’t feel in the mood to dance. You watched as everyone jumped around and sang along to the lyrics. You dropped your gaze to the floor not wanting to catch Logan’s eye. You felt like if he looked at you, you just might burst into tears. You hadn’t even realized how strong your feelings for him were until now. When you couldn’t have him anymore.
Suddenly you felt someone brush against your shoulder. Guessing it was one of the fans accidentally bumping into you, you didn’t even look up. But the person was persistent to have you look up at them. You felt someone’s hand lift up your face slowly in their direction.
"Whoa, wherever the wind blows me you’re still the one and only girl on my mind." Logan sang to you. You. He was singing to you. He had picked you as his Worldwide Girl. You felt a smile forming on your lips.
So, it was true. All those looks he had given you in the past, all those compliments, everything, They weren’t just a gesture of kindness of politeness. They were your first thought, which after seconds of considering you had thrown away. And how he had acted in the car today. It all made sense now. He wanted to be alone with you, because he did feel the exact same way about you as you felt about him.
He reached for your hand again and you gladly took it. Not missing a note he led you on stage. As always you got lost into the lyrics, but this time it wasn’t in your daydreams. You weren’t imagining it. It was actually happening.
You blinked just to make sure, but it was still happening. You were Worldwide Girl all along.
"Yes, I may have a million pretty girls that know my name, but don’t you worry." he looked intently into your deep ocean blue eyes. You could tell they were twinkling of happiness. He leaned in before finishing the last lyrics of the song.
“‘Cause you have my heart.” his sweet melancholy voice filled the arena. The arena erupted into cheers. And he did what he had been planning for the past month of tour. He leaned in and your lips collided. You felt a spasm of thrilling electricity all over your body. But the good kind. The kind every girl wants to feel at least once in her life.
After a lingering first kiss he slowly pulled away and you both smiled at each other.
"You always have been and always will be my Worldwide Girl." he breathed as he leaned in for yet another kiss.
You knew the crowd was still cheering in the background, but it was like you couldn’t hear them. You were in a different world now. A world yours and Logan’s. Where anything could happen.
And just like the Worldwide Girl in the song, you knew you had his heart. And sure enough, he had yours.